The following essay
was written by Isai Perez, one of my students this last class session, about
his experience at MOVE. He asked for my help translating and editing and gave
me permission to share. Isai is now in Bolivia where he will be in charge of
the food services at the Familia Feliz orphanage (See pictures below).
All Roads Lead Home
Isai Perez
All roads lead home. I couldn’t get that
phrase out of my head.
For some reason,
different feelings had ended in tears that night. I felt I could
not continue the same life I had when there was something better, but to leave
my dreams for something completely new? I was really scared.
"All roads lead home?" What does that
mean? Somehow
I kept thinking about that phrase. Roads? Home?
Ha ha ha. I laughed at myself for a moment. “Foolishness!” I hissed through
my teeth.
At that moment I received
a message: "Hello friend, are
you ready to come start a new adventure with Jesus?" The truth is
that it took me two days to answer that message. I was afraid to leave everything
to go to a little missionary training school in Belize.
That week one of the
most important people in my life disappeared, leaving a great pain in my
heart. My sadness was so noticeable that my parents were
worried. So I decided to answer the message and asked the directors if I
could arrive a week early. They said yes, and I bought my bus ticket for the
next day. It hurt a lot to say goodbye to my family. I had
been home with them for a full year while I recuperated from a surgery that had
taken me away from college. I saw my parents crying and I felt my little
sister’s arms holding tight to my leg as a last hug. Sadness enveloped me
for a moment as I boarded the bus and tears began to roll down my cheeks.
"All roads lead
home" the phrase interrupted my tears, but I could not understand. What ways? What home? I'm leaving
my home. I told myself. Maybe if I
got married I could go to my home. I retorted sarcastically. And
thinking about all this I fell asleep.
Finally I got to
MOVE. Everything was very different. The people were very friendly. I
liked it so much that I started to forget about my problems and that confusing phrase
that had plagued my thoughts. Until one evening when the principal said, “I had
the opportunity to visit my family but I am happy to be home again.” When she
said that I remembered that she had referred to MOVE as her home before, and it
had confused me a little. But now I was really perplexed!
The rest of the students
arrived later that week. They came from Belize, Canada, the U.S., Chile,
Mexico, and Guatemala! MOVE suddenly had more life than usual. We
were all waiting, we did not know what was waiting for us, but we knew what we
wanted, to serve and to know God more.
During the first week
of our new life at MOVE, we had the opportunity to hear each
other’s stories, or many would say testimonies. Through them we could see that God
had led us all in different ways, and that MOVE had been our choice. For many
of us it was a drastic decision to come to MOVE. But we could
not deny that it was the best decision. Each testimony told
of a sea of troubles, suffering, despair, anguish, pain and confusion. We all
had the desire to leave all those problems in the hands of the only One who was
willing to give his life for us, Jesus Christ, and He had led us step by step
to this decision.
"-All Roads Lead
Home" I said to myself again, but still could not
understand exactly what that meant.
All of us chose from
four different elective classes: mechanics, construction, education
or health. We had a tight schedule of school, work, visits to
the local churches and other activities. Each of
us had to preach twice, give four Bible studies and direct two small
groups.
A smile could be seen
on our faces, teamwork was one of our good qualities, we all seemed to be
synchronized, and any problems around us seemed intangible for the
moment. I liked this new life; apparently everything was perfect! Something
that really caught my attention is that everyone ran: from breakfast to
classes, classes to lunch, lunch to work, from work to dinner in the evening
and many more activities.
But as the days
passed, my smile began to fade. Fear and fear of loneliness began to pervade my
heart and soul. Each of us began to act differently, as activities and
responsibilities began to be a burden and a challenge for most of
us. Pride and self-sufficiency was our greatest enemy. We really had
many talents in different areas and that knowledge was our own shadow.
After the first month
of classes, we had a survival campout in the bush as part of our Practical
Skills class. We had to meet several
conditions in order to win certain pantry items for the campout. One condition was to keep our garden
areas clean and free of pests. Also we had to present our homework and
tasks on time, and complete certain challenges that our teacher gave us in
order to win the necessary points. Finally the awaited day arrived. We
got ready to pray and head out.
That
weekend marked us all. Lack of organization, communication
and our pride emerged from our shadows. It was a hard blow to see how
low many of us had fallen. From that point on the challenges
were increasingly difficult and the activities even more numerous.
Soon a new challenge
began. We had to plan a mission trip that takes place at the end of
the course, and would test our knowledge gained during the three months. Most importantly,
it would test our trust in God.
We had to choose among
ourselves who would be in each of the 17 different responsibilities as director, secretary, treasurer, food
services, accommodations, evangelism, health, and transportation, among others.
We began to pray together each for our trip, but sadly we were still not able
to achieve unity among ourselves. We did not give up, however, and God did not
abandon us. Little by little I could see the hand of God working in
us. But negativism and pride were also still present.
It was in
those days when my spirits fell, and I touched the depths
of my ocean of loneliness and sadness. For a few days I forgot everything,
and many noticed it. I felt that part of me had died. I could not see
clearly. And when I was just about to give up and go home,
I told myself “All roads lead home.” Again that phrase resounded in my
mind, although I still could not quite understand.
Another week had
passed; both the good and the mistakes were history. What have you really done to improve and to overcome? Or do you
just settle for what you thought was good? I asked myself. The truth is
that often we stop so long to lament missed opportunities that we don’t see other
opportunities open before us. When you cannot run, jog. Jog when you
cannot walk. When you cannot walk normally, use a cane but never
stop. Life is uphill. Never give up! Always go ahead, with confidence in
God because that will bring success.
Despite all
our weaknesses, God had great plans for
all of us. Despite our differences, our faith in God kept us
together. We were 17 students with 17 pasts and 17 different stories. Is
that what that phrase “All Roads Lead Home” meant? I wondered, but it still
didn’t quite make sense and I sighed but still hoped to discover the
meaning.
The days passed
quickly and there was so much to do. We only had three weeks to complete the
three months at MOVE. We were one week away from the mission trip. Our
destination was San Pedro Columbia Belize. We were all
worried because we had no money. But that week all 17 or us
joined in the morning to pray and beg God's direction. Despite our stress and
concern for the trip, God began to make changes in us, and at
the same time He graciously began to give us what we needed for the trip.
It was Monday,
November 6 at 4:47 in the morning when we started our trip. We were all
waiting to see what would happen. I am more than certain that
God watches over his children and all those who decide to leave
everything to follow Him. He provided the money that we needed at the
last minute.
The mission trip was
a success. The people of San Pedro Columbia could see something
different, and expressed interest in hearing the Word of God. We did
construction, mechanics and health fairs. We went out to visit people
in the Mayan village. We distributed books and had a campaign in
the local church as well as a Vacation Bible School for children. Thank God we
had about 90 children in the last few nights. God blessed us
greatly and was with us at all times. He kept making changes in us, and despite
the difficulties we could feel peace. We were now sure that God made
up for our needs.
After the mission
trip we only had one week left. The three months had come to
an end. I could not avoid the nostalgia at the thought that I would
no longer see my new friends. I was afraid because now we had
to split up to go to the mission field for 6 months or
maybe more. We did not have the money or any idea of how we would get to
our destinations. What we did know was that God would continue to provide
and help us at all times.
“All roads lead to
home” I told myself again, but this time I knew that my
home is not on this earth, my home is a place I can not even imagine. My
home is where Jesus is, no matter who I was, what I did wrong, if I
am poor, or do not have a degree. It does not matter my skin
color or the country I come from, God loves me and accepts me as I am and is
willing to give me the peace that the world denies me. He died
for me, died for you and is willing to carry our
burdens. He is willing to change the direction of our road, and take us
home to His heavenly kingdom. Yes, all roads lead home, if
we trust in God with all our heart. If we let Him direct our paths, soon
we will enjoy eternal life and happiness.
“I'm with you, I
will protect you wherever you go. Do not be afraid or discouraged, be
strong and brave I command you,” God says. He will never leave us
alone.
We were 17 students
in our last weekend in MOVE. For us, MOVE was a drastic
decision, a 180 ° change. We cannot deny that it has been the best
decision. Each of us is a witness to the living proof of
the miracles of the great love of God in us. We all have the desire to go out
and tell others about the love of Jesus who gave His life for
us on the cross of Calvary. Now I have a new challenge: to
follow Jesus without flinching, without looking back: to leave everything for
the One who gave His life for me.
